shut up neighbors’ infant! i’m the one who is tied down with responsibilities, a test to study for tomorrow and a huge project..all this not in my own language. you, you dont even speak a language. no one expects anything of you, you’ve only been in the world for a few months and it is full of possibilites for you. you should rejoice.  

Me, I am already done with 1/3 of my life. I’ve accomplished nothing great and I see nothing of my future…I have no idea what the fuck i will be doing with the rest of the 2/3 of my life. We live in an extremely complicated society in which i am socially incompetent…toujours maladroit. Its not just me i suppose, there are many others like me . The rules are contradictory and always changing, so no one learns them really. We cling to rules in order to live with each other, in order to function as a society, but in a sense there are no rules. Just the chaos of life. 

So this is what you have to look forward to. You don’t know this though. You are just a baby. No ones judging you because heck, you haven’t even developed into a real person yet. You’re a completely stupid, putrid little creature but your parents love you unconditionally. They havent gotten the chance to know you. You havent gotten the chance to know them. Perhaps later you will resent or even hate them for some of the things they did to you (and then you will forgive them as time passes). Perhaps you will disappoint them, the child which they put so much of their time and money and hope into. You will hurt others and they will hurt you, but you will love too, and others will bring you so much love. This is the process of living-of becoming a person. You will be shaped. you will be molded. You will be tested, you will struggle. But for now you are just you. Enjoy this time while you have it…Well I see you’ve stopped crying in the time i have taken to write this. Bon, tu as compris. Goodnight.